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Adjustment

Inhale love, energy, joy and hope

Exhale exhaustion, negativity, anger, and frustration

Lately, I would find myself stopping and slowly exhaling. It is like a whole body exhalation. I think I was unconsciously doing this to let go of stress and find relief. I’m glad I took something away from taking Karen Palmer’s Kundalini Yoga class in Buellton, California. This last week I found myself increasingly tired and frustrated from menial day-to-day happenings. It seems that I am experiencing “super delayed onset muscle soreness” from the jump in activity starting from the first day of work. I was so surprised I wasn’t being phased by being on my feet all day for the first 2 weeks at the restaurant and then, all of a sudden, those two weeks of tension and strain culminated into me barely being able to walk without feeling soreness.

Despite the charm of living in New York City, there are many daily stressors that can contribute to throwing the average person “off the bandwagon.” Many of these are found on the daily commute to work when most people have to use public transportation and share lots of personal space. There are many people asking for money by performing, begging or announcing an uncomfortable sob story (in the  subway) that one will encounter on the daily. Running errands is a complete hassle because people here work a lot and tend to use their almost nonexistent free time for these. And since NYC is crowded and people don’t have to much privacy, you will see a lot of weird stuff and people wigging out or tripping out. This is either because they are on drugs or mentally unstable. The bombardment of outside stimulation and noise will either numb people’s sensitivity or stress them out. The good thing is that I am learning to passively observe (or laugh at) all the chaos instead of internalizing it. I think Cyndi Mikelson and Karen Palmer would be proud of me 🙂

In terms of my living situation I’m doing pretty well because I finally have the essentials in my new room. Now I have a new item on my important to-do list: 4) Get A Career Related Job Or Internship (Apart from my current job)

That’s all for now, till then-take care.

-Nicole

 

 

 

Embrace the Struggle

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Phew! It’s been a rough last couple of days. I’ve been fighting a cold and sore throat for over a week (while proving myself at work), riding emotional roller coasters and have just gotten out of the relationship that inspired me to move to the other side of the country. Although it can be quite terrifying, I am not discouraged. With every bump in the road and unsettling thought that I experience, I feel myself building a tougher skin. This is good because I wanted to build it before but couldn’t in the unchallenging place I used to live in. I even tried to prepare myself through taking courses and reading helpful books..nothing replaces THE REAL THING.

There is a good thing that came out of me living and working in an unfulfilling place-reading and learning A LOT so I can apply it now when all my wits are being put to the test. Here is a great quote that I took from Oprah’s inspiring interview at Standford (here’s the link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6DlrqeWrczs).

“There are NO mistakes, there really aren’t any. Because you have a supreme destiny. When you’re in your little mind, in your little personality mind where you’re not centered and you don’t really know who you are and that you come from something bigger and we are all the same..when you don’t know that, you get all flustered and stressed all the time wanting something to be what it isn’t. There’s a supreme moment and destiny. The losses are there to wake you up. Your life is bigger than any sole experience. RELAX, it really is gonna be okay. When you get steered off course and overwhelmed just ask yourself “what is the NEXT right move?” Everything is leading to your destiny and calling”

-Oprah Winfrey

I know it was long but wasn’t it great!? I read that anytime I find myself regretting my big and little decisions (such as moving here). I must part from writing as I need to continue my apartment search and prepare for my long workday tomorrow. Farewell for now.

Stay tuned..

-Nicole