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An Update On Last Week’s Goals

Fall-Inspired Self Portrait done with colored pencil

Fall-Inspired Self Portrait done with colored pencil

So last week I undertook the project of publicly sharing six ambitious tasks for me to accomplish between Thursday 10/23 and Saturday 11/01. This was an experiment to test the effectiveness of perceived accountability. I say “perceived” accountability because I have no idea how many people or if anyone is consistently keeping track of my blog and its progression. This is fine because its visibility is still public and that puts pressure on me to deliver.

Unfortunately I didn’t complete most of my “weekly big six” because I forgot to consider my mom’s visit to NYC! I am by no means blaming it on her, I am acknowledging the fact that I GROSSLY lacked perspective while planning. I also didn’t know that I was going to be so over-scheduled by my employer.

This is where I got with them:

  1. (Check) Start doing some form of cardio or strength exercise for at least 30 minutes 4-5 days a week
  2. (Check, more work needed) Seek out events and interest-focused groups to attend in Bushwick (probably through Meet-up)
  3. Seek out and attend some exercise or dance class in the area
  4. Buy more towels, a window curtain, trashcans (Check) and recruit my  mom as a decorator (In Progress)
  5. Reach out to at least 2 different resources each day for getting work in my field
  6. (Check and In Progress) Do some awesome things with my mom because she’s visiting and I’m SUPER EXCITED

Although I didn’t put this in my to-do list, I AM very happy with the art piece I created last week. Revisiting my identity as an artist will become the new theme of the year for me, especially now that I’m in New York. This has been unexpected, as art is the last thing on mind when I find myself stressed and I anticipated being highly stressed in New York. This new urge to get back to art has been an utterly pleasant surprise that I am welcoming with a huge embrace. What’s even better? The fact that winter is almost here and the weather is going to be more conducive to me staying in and contemplating an empty canvas.

I’ve also been getting urges to expand my understanding of art into the realm of technology. I know that I’m “young” and expected to really “get” the tech world and all its tricks but I have never been a fan of “screens.” It’s time, it’s time I accept that I can’t run away from these things anymore and I need to learn to conquer them and use them for my benefit in means of graphic design, photography, editing and whatever else I should learn.

Keep Creating!

-Nicole

Adjustment

Inhale love, energy, joy and hope

Exhale exhaustion, negativity, anger, and frustration

Lately, I would find myself stopping and slowly exhaling. It is like a whole body exhalation. I think I was unconsciously doing this to let go of stress and find relief. I’m glad I took something away from taking Karen Palmer’s Kundalini Yoga class in Buellton, California. This last week I found myself increasingly tired and frustrated from menial day-to-day happenings. It seems that I am experiencing “super delayed onset muscle soreness” from the jump in activity starting from the first day of work. I was so surprised I wasn’t being phased by being on my feet all day for the first 2 weeks at the restaurant and then, all of a sudden, those two weeks of tension and strain culminated into me barely being able to walk without feeling soreness.

Despite the charm of living in New York City, there are many daily stressors that can contribute to throwing the average person “off the bandwagon.” Many of these are found on the daily commute to work when most people have to use public transportation and share lots of personal space. There are many people asking for money by performing, begging or announcing an uncomfortable sob story (in the  subway) that one will encounter on the daily. Running errands is a complete hassle because people here work a lot and tend to use their almost nonexistent free time for these. And since NYC is crowded and people don’t have to much privacy, you will see a lot of weird stuff and people wigging out or tripping out. This is either because they are on drugs or mentally unstable. The bombardment of outside stimulation and noise will either numb people’s sensitivity or stress them out. The good thing is that I am learning to passively observe (or laugh at) all the chaos instead of internalizing it. I think Cyndi Mikelson and Karen Palmer would be proud of me 🙂

In terms of my living situation I’m doing pretty well because I finally have the essentials in my new room. Now I have a new item on my important to-do list: 4) Get A Career Related Job Or Internship (Apart from my current job)

That’s all for now, till then-take care.

-Nicole