My mood is a lot sunnier now than it was last week. I have to attribute that to the compounding of negative events that unfolded in the previous weeks. First, getting sick is a huge DOWNER. Second, finding oneself having to look for a new job again SUCKS! You put these together and you get pressure, helplessness, and anxiety.
Fortunately I did the right thing by trying to get as much done as possible through the computer applying for jobs and then reading a book directed at changing destructive thought patterns. I knew I had to change something inside of me because I tend to “coincidentally” get sick when there’s a big change happening.
It HAD to stop! I refuse to go through something as frustrating as that again. I want to be strong and equipped to rise up when adversity hits again. Many NY veterans have told me that I’ll probably get sick here more often than in California but I refuse! I won’t let it happen.
I know that my anger, denial and hesitance to move on (in regards to my job situation) eventually led to my diminished immunity and my nasty cold. Combining the physical disciplines of increasing sun exposure, movement, and interpersonal interaction with the mental disciplines of daily positive affirmations, reading and effective goal setting helped me to heal and lighten up my mood.
Phew! I’m glad to be out of the gloom. I’m actually happy it’s going to SNOW on Wednesday! I also have a few interviews tomorrow so things are starting to look up. I’ll give you an update afterwards.